Showing posts with label integrity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label integrity. Show all posts

Saturday, August 7, 2010

51) Electronic Cocaine

When you grow up surrounded by labels of peer pressure, social norms, and signs of how to act, it's hard to deviate from a preset course of action. It takes control of what you wear, how you act, how you speak, and in the most general of descriptions, how to live your life.

One of these decisive factors for the current young is video games. You've heard of it, so it must be true. Capitalist America has groomed their electronic cow to produce the most milk out of the young, forcing them to convene on common grounds of "fun".

So it's a whole other argument when it come to video games that concerns me. Are teens playing games because they want to? Or because they're forced to?

'Forced' is a bit misleading here, but I'm referring to societal peer pressure. The internal instinct of capitalist America has triggered a subconscious desire to purchase. Not because the product is practical, but because it's the 'best' thing to do. There is a fine line between buying a game because you want to play it, and just because someone else has it.

This ties into the American education system, which, through no fault of its own, has encouraged kids to compete with each other. First it was grades, then it was material possessions, and now it's social lives. The system has played on our primal need to compete, turning it all into a covert war of buying and owning.

It's an addiction to compete. It's deadly in America, where whoever has the most, wins. Now that it's taken hold in the electronic world, kids are being exposed to the perils at infancy. It's a drug.

You hear stories and cases of people falling into internet and video game addiction, but you dissociate from them because you believe you believe their cases are extreme and unfathomable to you. But what if it's because you're just denying it from yourself? If it could happen to them, it could happen to you, right?

What I'm ultimately getting at here is that addictions cause you to lose personal integrity. This is virtual cocaine, which affects the mind and the body. The more you're connected to electronics, the harder it is to step away. You might think that this is obvious, but many people continue to set their measures of e-addiction higher and higher.

Who can blame them? In this modern America, it's no longer practical to be disconnected. Peoples' jobs are spent in front of a computer. Teenagers have to use a computer to do their assignments. More and more, it seems that our society is becoming more enslaved to machines rather than the other way around.

It may turn out in the long run that resisting electronic cocaine is a futile endeavor. After all, society is measured in change by infinite unpredictable factors that become increasingly unrecognizable as time passes.

I refuse to believe that we very few can change the flow of history. Yielding to society is much easier than resisting it, because everyday the fight for the little guy becomes harder. It forces us to do the next hardest thing: change ourselves.

Next time you come upon the choice between electronics and a walk in the park, decide what part of you holds more brevity. Are you willing to yield to society, or are you willing to change yourself?

These are the questions I continue to ask myself. The more I grow up in this electronic world, the more I realize the futility of resistance. My search for something more becomes increasingly futile in a society I refuse to accept. The vices of humanity call, and we must all submit.

Am I supposed to feel this way? Is it the new societal standard to feel pessimism? Or am I just growing up?

However:

Just because I take electronic cocaine doesn't mean I have to like it.

And so we merry few continue to fight the 'good' fight. We search for the truth. More importantly, we search for ourselves.

Monday, May 10, 2010

38) Growing Up

Adolescence is a time for every person to decide who they are in relation to the world. It is when a person decides and acts on their impulse to become a productive(or unproductive) part of society according to the status quo.

And who doesn't think they can change the world at the ripe age of eighteen? Some go on to become successful in their mission, fulfilling their lifelong dreams. It is the majority that is swept up in the throngs of everyday life. After all, nobody can expect who they actually become to be.

So my hypothetical stands for the people who don't want to part of this society, the ones that see human civilization has no intrinsic value to success. Whatever are those people are to do?

I don't claim to know anything, or even a lot. I'm convinced that no one I've ever seen or heard of can ever truly understand what it means to know everything, to become the richest, the most successful, the most popular, etc. There's just too many contradictions and morals involved.

But of the very few things I know, I can testify that the world is not a perfect place, and that my little contributions to the grand scheme of things don't matter. So why should I continue to exist? Is it for some higher purpose I have yet to discover?

It is this kind of soul searching that never stabilizes my mind. Everything I've ever known has always been betrayed by the one common enemy. Purpose. Even purpose's purpose is questionable.

I don't think anybody has a satisfactory answer as to the purpose of everything. I'd be quite shocked if they do.

But what I can't grasp is how I'm able to live, how others have been able to exist for so long without any care for their own purpose. It shocks me to see that I have to conform to the human civilization that has made its own system of survival based on endlessly questionable methodology.

By this I mean that one group of people lives based on indulgence. The first person to rebel gets thrown out of the group. If, hypothetically, this were the only group, that one person would legally be able to "cease to exist" in the relative frame of an outside observer.

That's what keeps me up at night. I want to become that lone person outside the system that can live without the group in peace and happiness. Maybe I already do and I don't know it.

That's what disturbs me. That there is only entropy and no order. That there are only more upon more unanswered questions. It's quite overwhelming if you actually stop to think about it. How is a person to live with such ambiguity? It baffles me.

I search for the impossible things that I can never hope to find, live the life that I know has no value or meaning to me, to reach toward a goal, destiny, or fate that I do not care for or want. How can a person live like this? Perhaps its just that simple: they can't.

So if that's the ultimate truth, I can justify my absolute praise and welcoming of death. What a shame that I can never understand what causes people to exist or perish at that hands of a higher concept.

Must be the absurdist in me.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

33) Convulsion's Smile

Listen as your enraged host rambles endlessly on the Mexican Drug War, Arizona's rambo immigration bill, President Obama's popularity in a tailspin proven with the don't ask don't tell policy speech interruption, violent political protests in Bangkok, Thailand: with accompanying video, and an ending message of hope.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

30) The Spring Break Rant

This week, we discuss the imperialist ipad, troubles with Pope Benedict the 16th, hate on the American School System as described by John Taylor Gatto (again), and see the legitimate fears of people and American politics.

This one's a long one folks, so strap in and listen:

Thursday, February 11, 2010

21) A Humane Vendetta


V for Vendetta is my favorite movie of all time. Perhaps it's the "Big Brother:1984" aspect that appeals to my inner revolutionary, or the simple story of a heroine struggling to find herself in an unfair and corrupt world. I can relate my life and the lives around me to such fiction with astounding accuracy.

The film explores the life of Evey Hammond, thrust into the revolution of a future totalitarian Britain. We see the story of her inner struggle, along with the homicidal actions of V, a Guy-Fawkes mask wearing vigilante. Through their actions we see the corrupted characters of their world: a egotistical soldier turned TV pundit, a doctor who kills in the name of science, a corrupt bishop pedophile, and a selfish dictator who rules without mercy.

It is in this context that I see the darker side of human nature. As I've grown older, I can't help but feel the fiction of this movie is more and more non fiction everyday. It is a world I cringe at, a world where I must become more aware of darkness everyday.

I suppose such a setting applies to many of us when we are young and innocent. Our eyes are barely open when we are thrust into an unforgiving Earth of wonders that we struggle to understand. As we begin to grow older, we see the difference between our childhood optimism and our world induced pessimism. When we are adults, reality loves to remind us that evil is inevitable, and that the hope we find in our lives in often scarce and sacred, existing most in dreams and aspirations.

Attempts to find the root of my personal pessimism for this world have yielded no fortune, for the answer I seek lies in the dark side of human nature I hate to explore.

And yet it is clear on television, the internet, the newspaper. It thrives in our daily vision, during our tasks. It is something hidden inside most of us, a monster we hate to admit exists. It is such evil that I fear it.

Within this evil, I indeed see the opposite side, the side of hope and brightness, of peace and love. From such strong forces I know my integrity still exists, and that the integrity of others still exist. No good or evil deed would be possible otherwise. It is the actions stemmed from such good or evil that may be the hardest to accomplish in our lives.

This is why I hold a personal vendetta against the evil of this world. I decided long ago that my integrity demands it. I would hate to lie to myself when I say I would die to combat the sins of humanity.

Through the toughest moments of my life thus far, I have called on this young and wavering integrity to guide me. Here's to hoping that it may guide me forever more on my mission of honorable action.

"Our integrity sells for so little, but it is all we really have. It is the very last inch of us, but within that inch, we are free."

- Valerie Page (V for Vendetta)